What's with the negativity?

What's with the negativity?

It's really getting to me. I know it's winter and less sun means more grumps, but this whole everybody I know being negative thing is really getting to me. I was happy, 2 days ago. I felt like a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders and it was right after I dreamt that Dreamboy and I figured out he isn't on Earth, he's on some other planet in some other galaxy I can't recall -if I ever even knew- the name of. Since then I felt like I had been relieved of having to find him, having to save his life, having to meet him, ever, on this plane.

My dad calls to talk negatively about this and that, my mother does the same, my sister...all the same boring and negative stories. I want to get out and live, and I guess I will have to soon as I return to work. But I have all these great ideas and enthuse, and every time someone has a negative statement for me to hear I feel a little more weight on my shoulders, a little more of a dark cloud build up over my head and I know it might not be long before I wake up a grump again and mad at world. But I like this feeling now, I like feeling like I'm capable of making something of my life still. I want to tell everyone I know to just stop being so fucking upset, depressing and sad, because it doesn't help me a fucking bit.

People always wonder why I'm so negative. I realize now it started when I was young and impressionable, and that's just how I was raised to be.